Gratitude, this morning because there is grace. You make mistakes and you know that you are tempting fate, tempting the beast. One thing people may not understand about me is that I believe in going after the disease. Confronting the thing so I know it better, so I know how it works on me. It's like a virus though, changing forms (often) from time to time... Brooke always challenges my ideas about what it is the disease and what is just normal, omnipresent bouts of self-doubt, of insecurity and knowing that being a little off-center is a daily reality for me. Know thyself, the saying goes. Was it Augustine? Or Plato? Aristotle? One of those eastern Europeans. Sometimes I don't think it's worth the time, not when watching Paranormal State or Homicide on A & E offers me a different insight into a reality other my own. I was thinking yesterday that I may have a few more years before it would entirely be true but I have lived close to half my life... I spent a great deal of time getting this far, and a lot of self-examination had to ensue to survive, to not entirely give up & disappear out of the blue and into the black.